New Chapters

This week has been really busy but in that chaotic schedule there are so many things I learned about the people I love and about myself. Firstly, my children are some of the most resilient people I have ever met, even more so then some adults I know. They have had several life changing moments and have taken it all with grace and understanding, which is a lot when you are 5, 4, and 2. I have started to look at my children differently, to revere them for their faith in our family.
Some of the changes they have had to deal with are new schools, and going to school for the first time. Not having each other there at all times like they are so used to. Mom gone to school, and dad busy with his work.
Brent had finished the academy and is officially a San Bernardino County Deputy. We are so very proud of him. His graduation was on Thursday, and many of our family and friends were able to make it, and it was so great to have them there for this amazing achievement. It was a powerfully moving ceremony. So here comes the hard part... the real work starts now. He is a great man, and I have no doubts that he will continue to do marvelous things. I have learned that this guy that happens to be my hubby is one loving soul, he will help you in anyway that he can. And seeing his loyalty to us, his family, as well as his new brotheren creates a feeling that resembles something of pride but also humbleness. I love him for his dedication, to family, to loved ones, and to random strangers that will never understand why he pulled them over fo speeding. ;)
I also learned something about myself, that I too can deal with a lot more than I ever gave myself credit for. We have had so many things go on that stress became a normal feeling, just as easy as smiling. It was something I was just prepared for every morning when I woke up. Without going into boring detail, everything that you can imagine can happen in a three week period, did happen. So it lies on me. But overall there were things to be so grateful for. Things could have been worse but the good Lord had helped us through it all. It is a hard thing to do when you change your attitude from, 'God why is this happening, I can't take it anymore,' to 'God thank you for it not being worse.' But I believe that with this attitude we can overcome so much.
Well that is my blah blah blah for the day. Just as soon as we have pics from the graduation we will be posting them. God Bless.

Twilight Series

So I was poking around on this world of the internet. I found some fun stuff.

Way To Be A Mom...

I have been trying to keep up on all the schedules and responsibilities that come with the family. It is funny to think how much moms really do. I just have to say thanks to all the moms out there. Even sitting, we have a million and one things running through our minds, from appointments, to meetings, to bills, and all the other obligations. I love being a mom, I love the hugs, the kisses, the cuddles, the feeling that there really isn't anywhere better than being in mom's arms. So hug a mom today, even if it's yourself.
I also have started classes this week. Monday was probably the worst day in all my years of school. I have gotten so used to the idea of waking late, and spending time with the kids. Just lost in my own little world. Then reality hits and school starts and I find myself longing for the simpler days of holding my children. Here I am in the big wide world of adulthood, 'when did that happen and where have I been?' I am so lost and confused when it comes to all the material we are covering, and I think that I am the only one that thinks that. But then, I look around the room and I see all the faces that look exactly as mine as if I were looking in a mirror. The 'deer in the headlights' look. During one of the breaks I ask a few women how they feel leaving the kids at home, they all agree, 'I'd rather be with my kids.' At least I am not alone. So I start to wonder, 'Do I really need/want to be here?' I still ask the question, and no answer yet. I am grateful to believe in God and all his infinite wisdom. I would be going nuts if I didn't have His guidance. I know that I will have that answer soon. I know that the Lord will provide me with all the answers and peace when it is time. Just now how do I deal until I get there?
Way to be a mom... To want everything wonderful for the family and doing what I can to get that for them.

Dillon is Two

Our littlest is now a big boy. He turned two this last Sunday and it is amazing how time flies. He used to go to bed like a little champ, but now... he has decided to just stop listening and it has become a game for him. YEAY for us. At any rate, it is still sad to see them grow so quickly. My little sister just had her baby boy, and listening to her on the phone I am both jealous and grateful. I miss the days of snuggles and little baby giggles. I miss the quiet still of baby's sleep. The cues and noises that they just make without even trying. It is so fun. But I am grateful to the close end of diapers, and no midnight wakings. I do not miss the formula or the millions of diapers. So I sit here in admiration for all the women who do it, including me. And the dread that one day, I will look at my babies and realize that they are not babies anymore.
But what am I saying, he is only two! Ha Ha. Look at the one you love and thank God they still put up with you.

No Place Like Home...

This weekend has been very full. Although, it is only Saturday and we still have whole day left before the weekend is over, it still feels like so much has gone on.
Friday we had the wonderful task of getting Dillon's Birth Certificate to Brent's employee office so that Dillon could be added to the insurance, leave it to me to get it in the last possible day. Then it was over to get my book money for classes. And when that was all said and done, we finally were able to come back up the hill for a quick stop at home. Brent wanted to go to the Drive-In theater in Barstow. It was so much fun to go to the movie. Neither one of us has ever been to a drive in, so it was great to share that experience with the kids. We watched a double feature of Wall-e and Hancock. Wall-e, by the way, was so cute! And I loved the 'communication' the robots had.
Saturday, we got up and I ran to walmart and the grocery to get ready for the Bar-B-Que that Brent's fellow trainees had thrown together. The Bar-B-Que was great for the kids and for us. It was so nice to meet some of the wives/girlfriends. All these wonderful ladies I got to talk to were so down to earth. It is so hard to find people that are deeper than the materialistic portrayal of what a wife 'should' be. These women were far more than appearances, they had a true heart and it was so nice to surround myself with that kind of company. I have never been in a group of women where the dynamics are not to show what we have, or to prove that our lives are better than. The dynamics of these women were to get to know one another and to support each other in the choice of our husbands' career. I know that this was a family that we were creating. These women are some of the best I have ever met. It is nice to meet people that you know that what you see is what you get and there is no guessing. This family, the family brought together by law enforcement is a family that will stand by each other when needed most. I have never been in that kind of group. We have those in our lives that we can trust but how often do you get to meet a whole group? Well, needless to say, it was a great day.
After the Bar-B-Que we visited with Brent's family. It was nice to see some people that I hadn't seen in a while. We ate and swam. Swimming was especially fun because of the overcast day and the storm that was moving in. Although it would have been so fun to hang out longer the idea of home was just too compelling that we couldn't resist the urge. It is times like these that you thank God above that there is such a place like home. There is a place where you can just go and relax. The kids will play with their toys. Mom and Dad can come home and kick up their feet without having to worry where their babies are. Where rest can truly take place. Home is where the rest of the world could fall away but you are surrounded by the ones that mean the most and you can take pleasure in that small fact. Home feels good.
So there is my thought of day... never take for granted the beauty of home, where ever home is. Even if there is popcorn on the floor and clothes to be folded, take a breath and realize that home is where you are, and take joy that you have a place to make that mess ;) God Bless.

Summer Fun

So it is summer. The kids are having fun playing, even though with the current heatwaves the only place is inside. We have become somewhat nocturnal animals... we love it when the sun sets. It has been tough this summer since I am recovering from surgery, but I am way excited to get back to my normal self.
Since school is out for summer for me, I have turned into a daycare... jk. It feels like it. My very dear friend has a 4 year old boy and my sister has a 6 year old boy and I watch them both on a semi-regular basis. It has been really interesting having 4 boys and 1 girl. I find Rebecca often hanging out with me. So I try to find something fun to do.
And to think the kids don't start school until September. Oh man. I start school at the end of August, and it has been so fun hanging out with the kids but I am glad to go back. I really feel my IQ seep out of my head sitting here doing nothing. Clean house (check), clean/feed kids (check), finish random projects (check), play with kids (check)... ok done oh and its only 11am.
One thing that has been so fun this summer is the spouses' nights at the academy. The first night was just orientation. And last night it was out at EVOC, which is the driving course that the trainees train on. They had us go out and purposefully get into a fish tail and learn to get out of it. The best part? Doing it solo. Yea, that's right, they had us go out on our own in the vehicles. The area is called a skidpan, and it's just really slick cement with a bunch of water on it. I did a complete 360 degree turn and it was awesome! Of course I was screaming like a banshee. But it was loads of fun.
So summer is here, and so is the heat. But summer has just begun for us, so I am sure to have more stories.

The Faylor Fam

An introduction to the family...
Brent and I will be celebrating our 6th anniversary in October. We are by no means the 'perfect' family, but we do love with our whole selves and we make sure that is what we teach our children, to love.
Rebecca is our oldest child and she definitely has ECS (eldest child syndrome:). She makes sure that everyone is doing what they are 'supposed' to be doing. It is so funny. She loves helping me around the house, including vacuuming. If only she could stop pulling every dress she owns down to change five times a day. Apparently fashion extends to the little ones. She starts kindergarten in September, and I am not going to cry. I tell myself that growth is the best blessing from God. She is healthy and she grows.
Jordan is our shy boy. He is the most amazing little boy. Jordan will come up to me out of nowhere and just tell me, 'Mom, I love you.' It is quite the greatest thing. He is starting preschool come September, and I am not going to cry. Growth is a blessing. Jordan loves his Transformers and Power Rangers, as any four year old boy. He has quite the imagination, he has managed to make my vacuum into a super gun, so that he can scare the bad guys just like his daddy does. He is so proud of his daddy.
Dillon, oh Dillon. He is my baby and yes I give him special attention, I confess. I am working on it, the first step to fixing a problem is to admit you have it in the first place... that was humor. Dillon is two, and terrible is most likely what we should have named him. Screaming, hitting, yelling, craziness, it's all there. He is a bit behind his cousins of the same age, he is just now starting to talk. He runs like a mad-man, but he just doesn't feel the need to talk. Am I worried? No, Albert Einstein didn't start talking until he was five. So I know he will be just fine. Besides, it makes him my baby just a little bit longer.
Welcome, this is the family. Brent and I have talked about adopting a child in the near future, we will see. Until then, Five is what we have, and it is more than I could have ever prayed for.